Sunday, 28 August 2011

The week after vacation....

...feels like an eternal Monday.
Last week in Bear Lake I realized that I basically have the best family in the universe. Here are a very few pictures, brought to you by Instagram.

Our first stop every year is Bob's for some fresh Bob's Raspberries. We O.D. on these things.

View from the deck. Any book read here is 50% more enjoyable.

View from the casita down by the lake. What a beautiful mess we make at this place.

I can't say I'm a fan of dragonflies, but you have to be heartless to not feel bad for this guy. He somehow got skewered on the antennae of our truck and may have permanently ruined my appetite for kabobs.

It's been a terrible adjustment to real life but slowly I'm getting there :) I'm not sure I've ever appreciated enough how great it is to be with the people you know and love most. AND to be completely without internet! What a crazy, lovely thing.

On a somewhat completely separate note, today at church Rachael showed me this quote. I think I read it twelve times. Is anyone getting sick of my heartfelt posts? I sure am. Someday I'll return to the woman I used to be, but for now life is a beautiful, terrifying adventure that I can't ignore. And lucky you, you get to endure it with me!!!!!

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean security, and presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of maturity, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you can really endure. That you really are strong, and that you really do have worth. And you learn, and you learn, and you learn. With every goodbye, you learn."

Isn't that lovely? It made me re-excited about being alive. With that said, it's 12:01 and officially MONDAY. Make it a good one friends.

Wednesday, 24 August 2011

my life.

"Hi, I'm Rebbie, I'm new, and I'm incredibly excited to join your team here!!"

"Oh cool, where were you before this?"






"Oh....Brigham Young? Is that in....?"



Wednesday, 10 August 2011

maybe it's midnight and I will regret writing this.

I hope this doesn't come off preachy. I needed to write through my thoughts.

Today I was on the phone with mother and she told me how someone made a comment to her about reading my blog and how I was so lucky to have such an exciting life that seemed so perfect. While I was flattered, and happy I'd tricked someone to think my life is all rainbows and butterflies, I also felt the need to keep it real. If there's one thing I believe in it's authenticity and if there's one thing I hate it's internet-narcissism. So here goes an attempt to steer away from that.

Has the last month been exciting? Yes.

Has the last month meant some giant steps forward in life? Yes.

Has the last month been possibly the hardest of my life? YES.

The other day I mentioned to Rachael how the best part of my day is when my head hits the pillow. As it came out of my mouth I realized I sounded like someone in need of suicide watch. Thankfully, that statement is legitimately due to the intense comfort of my bed, but that being said, I've had easier times.

It's a new kind of lonely here, one I know makes me better but is still painful. It's going from a place of total comfort to a place of complete unknown. It's coming home to a house and not a home. It's meeting a billion people a day and just wishing one of them knew that you hate bananas or you wear fuzzy socks around your house.

Yet while it's been hard, I'd recommend moving away all by your lonesome to everyone in the universe. It took moving to a place where I knew no one to realize how much I'd come to define myself by things that really weren't me. It's the oddest, loveliest kind of simplicity to be alone, basically with yourself and with God.

I don't say any of this as a pity party or out of duty as a cynic, but more because I believe in the reality that no one's life is effortless or ever-glamorous. I believe reality is imperfect and I think that makes it better. I never want to dress my baby in Crew Cuts and I don't trust anyone who looks perfect all the time.

I am so grateful to be where I am right now. I have so many ridiculously amazing opportunities that I hope I'm making the most of. I feel quite confident that after working at this job my propensity to be egotistical will diminish and my offendability will, on a scale of one to ten, reach a zero.

What I have learned in the short time I've been here is that sometimes it takes people asking what you believe to realize why you believe it. It takes moving away to remember how much you love your family and friends. It takes having some idiotic new girl moments to quit taking yourself so seriously. It takes failing a few times to be happy with your best efforts.

Annnnnnd I'm tired. Here's to making this place feel like home.

Thursday, 4 August 2011

Ho-Lee Clow!

So this guy named Lee Clow is kind of a big deal in AdLand.
He's the reason why you buy anything (or everything) Apple makes, why you know about animals like the Energizer bunny or the chihuahua that quieros taco bell. He's been the mastermind behind Chiat for quite some time and I happen to sit right behind his office.

The other day I had a dorky ad person moment when I saw him for the first time and uttered a little gasp. I thought, Holy Cow!
Then I thought, Ho-Lee Clow! and realized I'm in the right job.